How "She" turns me out.

Person that changed my life?I feel blissful for living a life that is as poor as church mice and having to faced many challenges. And I feel so proud of revealing to everyone that I’m from a single-parent family. I bet you may be pondering about who were the ones that motivated me throughout this whole ordeal. Is this person any of my best friends? Mentor? Or hint, my mom? Question here is, WHO is she?

What is the least amount of money you have spend for a single lunch meal? Perhaps Malaysian Ringgit(RM) 5. Well I can top that in saying I have once been forced to spend Rm10. Not for a day but for a week meaning 7 lunch. Certainly I had to use this sum to buy groceries and cook on a regular basis. To overcome this poverty, she encourage her to be a house cleaner to make extra money. Looking back, I cried each time I’m about to clean a house. I was filled with anger of why am I so poor. Due to this wonderful past, I’m so thankful to her that now I can have the luxury of spending up to RM26 in a single lunch meal than having to rely on RM10 a week.

From a total of 7 classes for each form, this second-last class girl in Form 2 was able to leap to the fourth class in Form 3. What drove me was to engage in a better class but more on to avoid a bully who had tormented me since my third year of primary school. Reminiscing, she reminds me of being grateful to him and every other people who had been bad to me. Now at 21 years old, this “helpful” people lead me to grow well and having a cut above all my same aged friends.

I often question to her why is my family different from others? Why am I not given the chance of calling “Daddy, Pappa, or Father?” Since my dad died 12 years ago, I was lost but she kept reminding me to be strong. She gave me a realisation after the training yesterday, that my heart is actually half broken. I never dealt with the emotions of losing a father. I kept avoiding it but after facing it yesterday, I realized how strong i was. She coerced me to sweep it away, I finally realised where and whom I should focus my love on. Now, I am even more proud and appreciative to be living in a single-parent family.

She made me realize that the hardship I faced have become a motivation to be the best than anyone can ever have. I am so thankful to her for making me realise that I should appreciate my life even if I come from a poor family, that differs from others and constantly being bullied. The obstacles I faced she made me appreciate life even more as it gets tougher and made me who i am now. I would not say I am successful yet, but i can say I am better than most of my age. I can truly say I really love myself. And this person who constantly motivates me is the one whom I always see whenever I selfie.